Final Moments

I wrote this to my Little Jedi as labor slowly started in the middle of the night on July 3rd.

My sweet Demitri. My first born, my first little miracle rainbow baby. It's like you knew things were starting and that soon everything would be crazy and changing. You snuggled up next to me in bed but wouldn't go to sleep. 

You held my hand and gave me kisses. I had been having back pain and figured I just had to use the restroom so when I got up to use the bathroom (around 12:30-1 AM) you followed me there as well.

I sent you back to bed and like the good boy you are you listened but when I went into tell daddy that I thought my water was leaking and I was going to the living room to try and get contractions going you got up and followed me out there too. I let you stay up with me and pick out a movie because even though for the next hour nothing was happening I knew those would be the last moments we had together of it truly being just you and I. You chose to watch Baby Einstein's Lullabies, a calming music video, I used to put it on for you in the evenings when you were a little younger. You laid down on the couch, snuggled up under a blanket watching it. 

Then you would get up and come over to me to and try to climb into my lap as I bounced on the ball, still trying to get contractions started. You snuggled with me as best you could laying your head on my legs, rubbing my back and giving me tons of kisses. We talked about the movie and noises we heard outside. It was so still and quiet in those final moments of just us together. You were finally getting very very sleepy so I took you back down to bed and laid there with you and you fell asleep in my arms so fast. I lay there with you snoring way as my contractions finally started and immediately became intense but I didn't move because I didn't want to wake you.

Love you sweet boy, you will always be my baby!