To ALL the mothers out there.
The ones who's children are grown
the ones who get to hold them and watch them grow
the ones who still wait to meet them
the ones who held them but had to say goodbye
and the ones who are still trying.
Happy mothers days
Now I am logging off for the day to enjoy what makes my Mothers Day so special...my little boy. He's sitting right next to me right now just cooing and smiling away. I hope you are able to enjoy your mothers day as well no matter what stage you are at.
Showing posts with label trying to conceive. Show all posts
Showing posts with label trying to conceive. Show all posts
Sunday, May 13, 2012
Wednesday, April 27, 2011
Infertility Awareness- Don't Be Silent
Disease
[dih-zeez]–noun
1. A disordered or incorrectly functioning organ, part, structure, or system of the body resulting from the effect of genetic or developmental errors, infection, poisons, nutritional deficiency or imbalance, toxicity, or unfavorable environmental factors; illness; sickness; ailment.
By dictionary definition infertility is a disease. Something in your reproductive system is not functioning properly either from genetic or developmental error. In some cases toxins or hormones that have made their way into our bodies can effect our reproductive health as well. A majority of people if asked would not consider infertility to be a disease...they're wrong. Some people who face infertility have no "true" diagnosis, all their tests have come back with in normal range and their Dr can find no reason for them to not be getting pregnant.
20 Infertility Myths
Infertility: The Disease...
Resolve
Hannah Wept, Sarah Laughed
As I sit here preparing to write this I have to keep reminding myself to keep my emotions and especially my anger in check, so this will be short.
Infertility affects 7.3 million people of childbearing age in the United States alone! 1 out of every 8 couples is effected by infertility. Infertility is STRESSFUL! There are a ton of tests and procedures and meeting that have to happen. Stress does NOT make one infertile! To say so or to believe so is ignorant and insulting. IVF is not as easy as people seem to think it is. It is not a decision to be made lightly. It is a very expensive procedure that most insurance companies and plans do not cover and still has risk of not taking. Adoption is an option but it can still be expensive and until you are ready to accept that your journey is "over" it's not an option most people just jump into. Infertility can make one feel isolated and alone, because so few people are open about their struggle with it, because so many people are so quick to dismiss it or (inadvertently) belittle it, because so many people assume that they are "infertile" when in fact they are not. You don't want to be open about things that hurt you when nobody around you gives you the support you are actually looking for. But that further perpetuates the problem of people not understanding. Infertility can be over come (not in 100% of the cases, but a lot of couples after test, treatments, and procedures are blessed with the long awaited baby their hearts have been aching for!).
So that's all I'm going to write about for now, as I said I have a difficult time keeping my emotions in check right now. To all those out there struggling with/to over some infertility you have my love.
[dih-zeez]–noun
1. A disordered or incorrectly functioning organ, part, structure, or system of the body resulting from the effect of genetic or developmental errors, infection, poisons, nutritional deficiency or imbalance, toxicity, or unfavorable environmental factors; illness; sickness; ailment.
By dictionary definition infertility is a disease. Something in your reproductive system is not functioning properly either from genetic or developmental error. In some cases toxins or hormones that have made their way into our bodies can effect our reproductive health as well. A majority of people if asked would not consider infertility to be a disease...they're wrong. Some people who face infertility have no "true" diagnosis, all their tests have come back with in normal range and their Dr can find no reason for them to not be getting pregnant.
Infertility: The Disease...
Resolve
Hannah Wept, Sarah Laughed
As I sit here preparing to write this I have to keep reminding myself to keep my emotions and especially my anger in check, so this will be short.
Infertility affects 7.3 million people of childbearing age in the United States alone! 1 out of every 8 couples is effected by infertility. Infertility is STRESSFUL! There are a ton of tests and procedures and meeting that have to happen. Stress does NOT make one infertile! To say so or to believe so is ignorant and insulting. IVF is not as easy as people seem to think it is. It is not a decision to be made lightly. It is a very expensive procedure that most insurance companies and plans do not cover and still has risk of not taking. Adoption is an option but it can still be expensive and until you are ready to accept that your journey is "over" it's not an option most people just jump into. Infertility can make one feel isolated and alone, because so few people are open about their struggle with it, because so many people are so quick to dismiss it or (inadvertently) belittle it, because so many people assume that they are "infertile" when in fact they are not. You don't want to be open about things that hurt you when nobody around you gives you the support you are actually looking for. But that further perpetuates the problem of people not understanding. Infertility can be over come (not in 100% of the cases, but a lot of couples after test, treatments, and procedures are blessed with the long awaited baby their hearts have been aching for!).
So that's all I'm going to write about for now, as I said I have a difficult time keeping my emotions in check right now. To all those out there struggling with/to over some infertility you have my love.
Tuesday, April 26, 2011
Ultrasound
Today I had an ultrasound appointment down at the Kaiser hospital in San Diego. It went well...I think. We left home at 1:30 and somehow managed to get to the hospital at 2. I don't know how that happened because I didn't drive any faster than 75mph the whole time. But anyways we got down there and I finished the last of my mandatory 32 oz of water (which I was instructed to be done with at least an hour before my appointment) and we grabbed something to eat. Around 2:40 we went to find parking and then wondered on down to radiology and got checked in (I was given an ID bracelet, which I thought was odd). We waited in the waiting room for half a hour and watched an old Friends episode then got called back. The tech did an abdominal ultrasound first, which was torture because she kept pressing on my bladder, taking a bunch of pictures. When she finished she let me get up and finally go to the bathroom before I had to go back and have a vaginal ultrasound performed. So the appointment went smooth but it kind of sucked because she didn't tell me anything at all about how things looked; if my lining was still thick enough, if I had cysts forming, if my uterus was the proper shape (though Daniel said he saw her type in long cul-de-sac shape, whatever that means, hopefully it's good or at least not bad). When she had finished I asked how things looked and all she said was that my Dr would have the results in 2-3 days and would call me then. Which definitely doesn't make me feel confident that things are all well. But oh well nothing I can do about it but be patient, wait, and hope all is well.
my ID bracelet 
ultrasound machine 
Monday, April 25, 2011
Few have it everybody needs it.
Patience:
[pey-shuhns]–noun
1. The quality of being patient, as the bearing of provocation, annoyance, misfortune, or pain, without complaint, loss of temper, irritation, or the like.
2. Aan ability or willingness to suppress restlessness or annoyance when confronted with delay: to have patience with a slow learner.
3. Quiet, steady perseverance; even-tempered care; diligence: to work with patience.
Patience is something that when you are trying to conceive you need to have.
Most women how ever do not have it but as the cycles go by with out becoming pregnant you learn to have patience. There is no other choice but to learn to have patience and accept it. You can not speed the conception process up, your body will ovulate when it wants. You can not speed up the luteal phase (the time from when ovulation occurs to when your period shows-or hopefully doesn't). For two whole torturous weeks you are stuck being patient waiting to see if this cycle was the one; if finally this step of the journey is over. I have definitely learned to be patient, I have also learned to really take things as they come. I don't always remember that lesson but I have learned it and try to remind myself of it often.
Infertility and those who have had to go through a long journey to conception learn so much about life and themselves. They learn just how strong a human being can be and how strong their will is.
Romans 5:3-4 says “We rejoice in our suffering. For suffering produces perseverance, perseverance produces character, character produces hope, and hope does not disappoint us.”
[pey-shuhns]–noun
1. The quality of being patient, as the bearing of provocation, annoyance, misfortune, or pain, without complaint, loss of temper, irritation, or the like.
2. Aan ability or willingness to suppress restlessness or annoyance when confronted with delay: to have patience with a slow learner.
3. Quiet, steady perseverance; even-tempered care; diligence: to work with patience.
Patience is something that when you are trying to conceive you need to have.
Most women how ever do not have it but as the cycles go by with out becoming pregnant you learn to have patience. There is no other choice but to learn to have patience and accept it. You can not speed the conception process up, your body will ovulate when it wants. You can not speed up the luteal phase (the time from when ovulation occurs to when your period shows-or hopefully doesn't). For two whole torturous weeks you are stuck being patient waiting to see if this cycle was the one; if finally this step of the journey is over. I have definitely learned to be patient, I have also learned to really take things as they come. I don't always remember that lesson but I have learned it and try to remind myself of it often.
Infertility and those who have had to go through a long journey to conception learn so much about life and themselves. They learn just how strong a human being can be and how strong their will is.
Romans 5:3-4 says “We rejoice in our suffering. For suffering produces perseverance, perseverance produces character, character produces hope, and hope does not disappoint us.”
Wednesday, April 20, 2011
Genetics
We had our meeting with the geneticist this morning. It went well and was pretty much was I was expecting. Just a lot of paper work, gathering as much family history as we were able to give and then going over what different gene mutations we could possibly have. I found out that out of the 15-20% of all pregnancies that end in miscarriage (that's 1 in 4) only 5% of those are due to actual chromosomal abnormalities (caused by one of [or both] the parents).
Which was comforting because it means that there it is more than likely that neither Daniel or myself has any chromosomal abnormalities; but we will know when my test results come back. (we are going to have to wait to get Daniel tested as the VA take forever to process things, but the councilor told me that if he's going going to be able to get in with in the next month to have the blood work done to call and they would work with me to have him tested under me)
I am hoping that they are able to give me a copy of the results when they get them because the pictures of the laid out chromosomes were pretty cool.
I have another appointment this coming Monday, down in San Diego. It's an ultrasound to make sure that my uterus is sitting pretty and not a factor in my miscarriages. Yay for having to drink a ton or water hold it at least an hour before my appointment and then have them put pressure on my wanting to bust bladder, lol. Oh well it's all for a good cause!
Monday, April 18, 2011
Well looky here
Hopefully this is it.
The lines from the actual test 
Over all a pretty good day lol. Now to figure out what to do for dinner...hmm.
Over all a pretty good day lol. Now to figure out what to do for dinner...hmm.
Tuesday, April 12, 2011
It's a twisting winding road
Live life with no regrets.
A nice thought by something that is not so easy to do.
There are things in life that are out of our control that we wish we were able to change or choices we made ourselves that we wish we could go back and undo, or do differently. I know that I have a few situations in my past were I look back now and think "wow what a stupid decision that was, what on earth was I thinking?", but I don't really regret them. Each decision I made took me down a different path that lead me to where I am today, and while at times that journey wasn't remotely fun, I wouldn't undo any of it. While I have situations that I wish were different (for example having gone through two miscarriages) it was a situation that taught me a lesson and continues to even now. So even though I wish it hadn't happened at all I can appreciate what it has taught me.
We can not have growth without struggle to first overcome.
Romans 5:3-5 More than that, we rejoice in our sufferings, knowing that suffering produces endurance, endurance produces character, and character produces hope. And hope does not put us to shame, because God’s love has been poured into our hearts through the Holy Spirit who has been given to us.
There is always a silver lining, it may be nearly impossible to see and it may take time to see it, but it is there.
(New music is up, I tried to pick some songs that, while are not my usual genre of music to listen to, I enjoy and they make me smile and just feel happy. Hope you like them too.)
A nice thought by something that is not so easy to do.
There are things in life that are out of our control that we wish we were able to change or choices we made ourselves that we wish we could go back and undo, or do differently. I know that I have a few situations in my past were I look back now and think "wow what a stupid decision that was, what on earth was I thinking?", but I don't really regret them. Each decision I made took me down a different path that lead me to where I am today, and while at times that journey wasn't remotely fun, I wouldn't undo any of it. While I have situations that I wish were different (for example having gone through two miscarriages) it was a situation that taught me a lesson and continues to even now. So even though I wish it hadn't happened at all I can appreciate what it has taught me.
We can not have growth without struggle to first overcome.
Romans 5:3-5 More than that, we rejoice in our sufferings, knowing that suffering produces endurance, endurance produces character, and character produces hope. And hope does not put us to shame, because God’s love has been poured into our hearts through the Holy Spirit who has been given to us.
There is always a silver lining, it may be nearly impossible to see and it may take time to see it, but it is there.
(New music is up, I tried to pick some songs that, while are not my usual genre of music to listen to, I enjoy and they make me smile and just feel happy. Hope you like them too.)
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